Am I Good Enough to be Making My First Feature Film?

I think it goes without saying that we all struggle with imposter syndrome at one point or another and every time we start something new, the insecurities brew. I’ve begin my journey as a filmmaker thirteen years ago and I have created shorts, commercials, music videos and a series and now I’m ready for my first feature film but yet the imposter syndrome boils from my stomach and swirls a steam of negativity in my head and the thought of am I good enough surfaces. Now I know logically I put in the time and effort to be here but fear is playing it’s hand here. I am responsible for money that people have given, I am responsible to a crew that is dedicated to creating this and and I am responsible to tell a story about a man that I admire and care for.

I have to let go. I have to accept that while I will give every ounce of me on this project I need to show myself compassion for mistakes I might make. I need to be okay with failing because how can I rise if I never learn to fall over and over again. I shake off the negativity and breathe with a laser focus that puts me back into my power. I remember that I am the right person for this job and however this projects finishes I will not question or worry about not giving my all. I am dedicated into creating the best piece of art for where I am currently at on my journey and I am not an imposter, I am great at what I do, I am not perfect I am growing, I deserve to be here.